Post by Kristian Shanks
A version of this blog was presented at New Voices 2019
After my fourth unsuccessful interview for a responsibility post, and knowing that the dreaded formal capability letter was imminent, I resigned without a job to go.
This was a huge
weight lifted off my shoulders – now I could focus on what I needed to focus on
which was finding a new job.
It took me a
long time to process the fact that I’d probably have to look at a mainscale
teacher post – I honestly found this a humiliating setback and a clear sign
that I was a failure, that I hadn’t performed or hadn’t coped. The massive drop in pay wasn’t great either –
thankfully my wife was incredibly supportive even thought it meant potential
changes or delays to her plans to significantly reduce her hours and so on.
I got offered a
position on my first interview for a mainscale job at an RI school – but was
really impressed with the Head’s vision and ideas which chimed with my own, and
with the Head of Department who spoke a lot of sense. They were also able to look past my struggles
at my previous school and could see the wealth of experience and success as a
teacher that I could bring which was reassuring. I also liked the idea of being part of the
challenge of helping to improve a department.
The best thing
was the fact that I could really re-engage with my subject again, and I think
this was another big problem with the SLT job.
A big part of my teacher identity had been built on being a History
teacher, a guy who loved his subject, was really passionate and nerd-ish about
it – and being on SLT meant I had to move away from that which I found really
tough to accept.
Now it wasn’t
smooth sailing at my new school – there were still some issues that the school
was working through, and coming into a department where there had been huge
amounts of supply cover was really difficult.
You can’t just turn that around in one year, especially when learning
new specifications on top of this, and the results after Year 1 were the worst
any GCSE class of mine have ever had by a long long way. Again my confidence took a bit of a hit
although thankfully my results were similar to those of our Head in a different
subject and overall we’d had a really poor year as a school. Thankfully in Year 2 – the first on the new
9-1 GCSE qualifications, our departmental results skyrocketed and this really
helped make me feel like – ‘Oh yeah, I’m actually OK at this teaching lark’.
Again I also
felt like I could do more with the experience that I possessed. That frustration and a sense that I was at a
crossroads again led me to apply to my current school in a Head of Department
role (having been unsuccessful for a similar job in a different school). At that point, my feeling was if I don’t get
this – I’m out. I had an interview lined
up for a role at TeachFirst which sounded interesting, and a couple of other
education-but-not-teaching type jobs that looked interesting.
As it happened,
I think feeling like that really helped me to be really candid in my interview
for my current Head of Department post and I was successful. I’m now in a school where I’ve been able to
move on, develop my practice, be fairly autonomous in my role and continue to
immerse my love for History.
What has
helped me to bounce back?
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Firstly, it goes without saying
that having a supportive family and friendship network was massively important
and I couldn’t have done it without them.
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From a purely professional
point of view, it was re-connecting with what I enjoyed about teaching which
was actually my subject. I love History
and I came into teaching as a way to continue to be engaged with my subject. I’ve joined the Historical Association, I get
to go on network meetings with other History professionals and talk History,
and I’m part of a Teacher Fellowship programme with the HA on the Korean War
(where I got to go to Athens for a few days) and basically my job and my hobby
are really able to collide.
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I think the online education
world has been massively helpful. I was
always fairly traditional in my views about teaching and have always tried to
shy away from doing independent group discovery learning tasks on the sly, even
if I knew in certain observations making sure I was not seen as the sage on the
stage was important. Having engaged with
twitter and blogs I’ve now come across loads of people who think similarly to
me, but articulated all those ideas really clearly and had some evidence behind
them as well. People like Tom
Sherrington, Stephen Tierney, Ben Newmark, Becky Allen – their blogs were the
gateway drug into the Twitter world for me.
It has helped my practice so much, and helped me to firm up what I
believe about teaching. A recent example
has been the fabulous work by Matt Pinkett and Mark Roberts called Boy’s
Don’t Try. I’d always hated that
‘boys like competition’ and ‘boys want to learn about war’ rubbish in terms of
how we should teach boys. I’ve always
been pretty good at getting boys motivated to do well in History, and I think
that’s more because I’m an absolute swot and just try to pack lessons full of
interesting content rather than silly games and tasks which just didn’t feel appropriate
for that age range and cohort. It seems
that those guys kind of support that view too.
Rather than not having the courage of my convictions, possibly I veer
too much the other way when confronted with aspects of teaching that I disagree
with (for example, the obsession with made up data, our harmful accountability
regime, and weakness over issues of behaviour management). Managing this is an internal battle I am
trying to win.
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I’ve also sought some outside
coaching from a non-teacher – and I highly recommend this if you’re stuck at a
crossroads. Teaching can be a profession
where people get trapped because the pay and security are pretty good compared
to other professions. Going to see
someone outside of our ridiculous job might help you to have confidence you can
do other stuff if that’s what you want to do.
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Now, I feel like the direction
I want to go in is to eschew the traditional management type route and really
become a more active part in my subject community and helping to develop other teachers. We have an NQT in the department this year
who is fabulous, and I’m trying to do what I can to reach out where possible to
other History networks and our local university History ITT providers. I’m not sure I can do another 45 years in the
classroom or however long Iain Duncan Smith wants us to keep going for, and
therefore trying to build a side portfolio of ‘other stuff’ may provide some
opportunities.
Whereas three
years ago I was a jibbering wreck and had no confidence I now feel, whatever
happens next, I’ve got a bit of a plan and ownership over what I’m doing, and
that has been really important in keeping me going and helping me to bounce
back.